29 November '17
It's been weird finding a medication that actually works for me. I've been having more and more days where I feel like I'm missing something, and then I stop and think about it – and realize it's worry. I'm missing the weight of the worry. It's still there sometimes, but it seems more like *regular worry* instead of *soul crushing darkness.* I feel like this is an improvement. Sometimes I'm a little baffled because I feel like I'm supposed to be feeling something, but it's a lack I'm feeling, and not a bad one. It's just disorienting to feel that lightness in my heart. This in combination with several years (on and off of therapy) has finally given me more of a sense of peace. It's nice.